Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Okay. Finally.


You and I were watching, "Race to Witch Mountain." It was the scene when Seth and Sarah were battling out the alien villain in the secret garden spot inside that weird house.

Our hands were entwined and our shoulders touching.

“I like you,” you whispered.

Surprised, I responded, “Ako din...”

A few seconds of silence.

“Love you,” you muttered, a little nervously.

I was more surprised. I turned to you, “Talaga?”

You looked at me, more intently and nodded, “uh-hum.”

A few seconds of silence again.

“I love you too,” I replied.

Now, it was your turn to be surprised, “Talaga?”

I chuckled, “Oo.”

You then hugged me more tightly.


Was I thinking? I sure wasn’t.

But usually, I make wrong decisions when I think too much or too little.

But hey, I’m not regretting it a bit.

Twenty two years of singlehood, inclusive of three months of senseless searching...

...is OVER.



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...You can't deny chemistry -Makmak

Friday, March 13, 2009

Hey... Just a Bit

I'm still alive... only not in this lifetime.

One week and these friggin' papers will be over and I can start publishing online again.

One thing though, my bank of ideas is incredibly full of posting aspirants. Arrggh, frustrating as hell!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

A Sentimental Song

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I am quite bitter about the fate of this song. I submitted this as an entry to a songwriting contest, without realizing that my status disqualified me to be a finalist. I had sleepless nights recording this (although the quality is low and there were mouse clicks that can be heard). But I did hear that I supposed to make it if only I was qualified.

The protagonist (or should I say antihero) of the story is singing about just getting dumped by the love of his life and how this other girl who was so into him is trying to console him. He feels guilty that he had to make a rebound on this current girl.

No, I’m not the protagonist. I do not write songs that way. I usually detach from myself, when I compose words. I usually look at myself from the outside.

In this story, I am more of the current girl.

(but uh, no. I’m not a girl, hahaha. It’s just hard to make this gender neutral)

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SENTIMENTAL SONGS.wav

I really didn’t mean to put you here
I just needed someone by my side
‘Cause now I’m just feeling so alone
‘Cause she fin’lly walked out my life

I didn’t mean for you to see me cry
But somehow a part of me wants you to see, what a mess I am
‘Cause since you came after she left me
I feel much better than I’ve ever been

But I’m sorry, this is just about me, not you
This is just about her, and me, and our story
But you tell me, that it don’t matter to you
That for now maybe all that I need
Are some sentimental songs
And a sentimental you here with me

And I don’t wanna take advantage of
The sweetest friendship that I have with you
But you reassure me that it’ll be okay
Then you hold me like a lover would

But I’m sorry, this is just about me, not you
This is just about her, and me, and our story
But then you tell me, that it don’t matter to you
That for now maybe all that I need
Are some sentimental songs
And a sentimental you here with me

And you try to fill the spaces that she left me with
And you tray to take the footsteps that she’s been walking in
Though she’s gone, I still love her more
But you’re the next best thing that I can settle for

I really didn’t mean to put you here
But for the mean time
I just want you here with me